Anchor

I try so hard
But you never go away
I try so hard
To forget your face
Your smile was brilliant
It lit up the room
Your body resilient
To the deepest wounds
Skin like silk
Hanging from ivory bone
Holding you still
As you suffered alone
So strong and so quiet
Your heart was my home
But the beating grew silent
And so did the phone

I should have begged you not to go
I shouldn’t have tried to let you go
Now I’m broken and so alone
Incapable of loving another soul

Heartbreak I can handle
But this is much more
You were my anchor
In the middle of the storm
You held me steady
When the voices wouldn’t stop
And stood there ready
When I needed to fall
You reminded me every day
That I was so strong
No matter what I’d say
You sang the same song
You pushed me through depression
And held me through obsession
You took the gun from my hand
But didn’t try to teach a lesson
You accepted me for me
And the fucked up mess I am
You said youd never leave
I should have kept your hand

I miss you so much
I feel so alone
I let you become a crutch
And I can’t stand on my own

I would give my soul
To feel that way again
To have someone who knows
Someone who understands
I have so much love to give
And can’t let anyone in
I’m trying So hard
To learn to love again