People think because of the house i live in, the way i act. “MY HAPPIESS” that when people see the cuts and scars that its all bullshxt. I can’t explain in a way they understand. Why would the Lord let me, us suffer like this? if hes there ..
Do i like to cut? maybe .. Does it hurt? no.. It’s like people addicted to something, they feel numb. No pain. Just the relief. That’s cutting for me.. I makes all the pain go away. But, that’s okay.
Maybe one day people will understand, sike .. xD They never will. I’ll just keep it to myself and thoughts.
I just need somebody..
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I can relate. Its an irritating sort of missunderstanding. They think you have it all and to behave in such a way as this? Well..” That’s selfish and you’re obviously just a spoiled brat.”
They might understand if they could see what goes on in your head. If they could feel the pain. Just keep pressing on. Keep moving forward. You’ll find Someone.
Yea,yes,yes .. thank you for understanding. Because that’s exactly how it is. Nothing gets handed to me on a silver platter. They just need to walk in our shoes. It’s a whole different point of view.
It is. Depression and anxiety do not discriminate. And no one I owe what goes on behind closed doors. They have no way of knowing what’s actually going on with you. They don’t even try to understand. BUT. eventually, you’ll run into that person who makes all of the had things irrelevant. If you have no other reason to stick around, cling to that. They may not have met you get, but they’ll miss you horribly.
I can kinda explain. When I cut it feels like I’m letting the pain inside come out. I does hurt a little, but I like the pain. I try not to cut too much, especially this time of year when it’s hard to hide. This has been a really bad year and I too wonder why the Lord lets me suffer. I feel kinda abandoned by him right now. All that being said, I do realize that cutting isn’t really a healthy way to deal with my feelings. I too am looking for something or someone, but I’m clueless as to what or who that is right now. You are not alone!
Both you guys are exactly right, but those people left my life for reason, right? I kind of learned that, i’m done letting people in. Because they leave, then when they realize i’m doing okay. They want to come back. No.
And with cutting that, is how it is. For me, it doesn’t hurt until I realize what I’ve done. The other day was the worse, it’s usually just my wrist.. it was everywhere. And living where I do it gets pretty warm .. yesterday I wore and wrap with a wrist brace. People asked what had happened, what was I supposed to say? I got mauled by a bear? well, that is what I said.. more realistic I just told them it was a dog incident. People just don’t know.. I’m scared.