So anyway, the last year or so has really sucked. My wife made up lies to the police to get me arrested and got a protection order against me to get me removed from my house. Never spoke with her for the next year, except through our lawyers since she served me with divorce papers. Now that the protection order is expired she has been talking to me sweet as can be when I go over there to pick up our son. Of course the divorce is still going forward, it should be final any day now. She’s supposedly a Christian now and she says she forgives me. She has texted me, emailed me, she even gave me a hug one time. Now here’s where I get confused, I know she’s just being civil and doesn’t want to get back together. I on the other hand still care for her and her new found niceness has created a certain longing in my heart. Am I completely insane for feeling this way or what? And, I have so many questions. Like how could she lie to the police?, how could she serve me with divorce papers without any explanation? Why did she decide to divorce me? Wasn’t a 24 year marriage worth at least trying to save or have some honest discussion about it. Our son graduates from high school in a month and she suggested that we all drive up to the ceremony together. I feel like a fake pretending that everything’s all normal when in reality she destroyed me. I really just want some answers I feel like I need answered to move on. Like, she’s never admitted to her shortcomings in the marriage-I feel like she should be asking me to forgive her too. But, I could see that discussion going bad really easily. I didn’t mean to go on for so long. I guess I just wondered if people thought I should just learn to be content with things the way they are or if I should risk pressing things further? And if I should just leave things be, how do I stop feeling like such a phony being nice to her?-I’m just still so hurt and angry at the things she did to me.