Every day

ssI’ve gotten to the point to where my head hurts when ever I get even the slightest depressed It hurts so much I can’t stand it. My biggest wish is to be happy. I want a family and kids My girlfriend made me promise I wouldn’t hurt myself. She use to selfharm but she stopped when we started living together and she realized that I cut alot and she wanted us to get better together but its hard for me I don’t want to let her down but when she gets upset I get depressed.. She’s all I have like my mind is so damage that I. Can’t even love the ones that I know love me like I can say in a heartbeat that there not worth living for and I wish they were I just don’t really have it in me to care It’s been a year since I met her and I can say that I’m alive still because of her people always say your to pretty to be cutting or you don’t look as if you would do something like but I don’t know what a cutter actually looks like You wouldn’t know my pain until you saw my scars but i was there where none it’s sad really smh I was there was a simple fix well I have therapy tomorrow just another day of explaining my feelings and popping pills what a life