GeneralMy Suicide NoteRants I am truly sorry. by alonelybird 5/20/2015 written by alonelybird 5/20/2015 I’m gonna fucking kill myself soon, I almost did today, but like all the other times I backed out because I’m a fucking failure and a coward. I’m sorry to everyone for having to know that I exist, but don’t worry because I’m going to be gone soon. everyonegonnakilltoday 16 comments 0 Email Related posts Remote Viewing… 9/21/2021 Pure living hell 9/21/2021 Feels like a watershed moment 9/21/2021 kill me 9/21/2021 update 9/20/2021 He thinks, he says 9/20/2021 i’m done 9/20/2021 Bullshit 9/20/2021 What if I’m not the problem? 9/19/2021 Back in the Ditch 9/19/2021 16 comments MoonShine 5/20/2015 - 8:44 am No don’t be sorry. I am sorry for your misery and suffering. You truly are a warrior as you have been able to live till now despite your miseries and suffering. Log in to Reply alonelybird 5/20/2015 - 9:06 am Thank you for that but I already am. Log in to Reply AllRed 5/20/2015 - 8:47 am Hello there, you might be feeling like a total failure but no.I used to think of it myself and told myself that I will succeed and that failure will not be tolerated.I had people considering me as it (a failure).I don’t your stuff and motivations and reasons for the suicide but else try to start off from ashes until all the way on top.In general, I think it’s nearly impossible for me to kill myself.I’d suggest you don’t consider yourself as a failure and look toward making your life better.And for instance, if you got somebody that made you like this then teach ’em a lesson.So to summarize quickly, you can start off from nothing to something you would be passionate about and would love to live for.I experienced what you’ve experienced before so keep on living and don’t even try to kill yourself or else you might get what you wished you haven’t.I do hope my message was clear enough for you and do not even think about suicide.Or else just take it as this, failure is not an option, just like suicide is not an option.You can reply if you want or not, your choice is free. Log in to Reply alonelybird 5/20/2015 - 9:21 am Sorry I can’t really write a proper reply back right now because im pretty messed up right now but thank you Log in to Reply angel wing 5/20/2015 - 8:55 am Find what attaches you to this earth. May it be the love in your heart or the sound of a babbling brook. Whatever keeps you grounded, may it keep you grounded! I’m sending peace love and light I hope it finds its way to you. Log in to Reply Xirizo 5/20/2015 - 9:09 am Well do what you think is best. Log in to Reply alonelybird 5/20/2015 - 9:23 am Yeah I am falling asleep as I write this so it à TN ver good. But thank you I win try Log in to Reply worthless_loser 73 5/20/2015 - 9:23 am This is what I have learned from my experience with suicide attempts. 1) It’s very difficult to kill yourself for most people. It doesn’t matter how much you want to die, you will still be your biggest obstacle to overcome. 2) There are two ways to do it: on impulse or with a plan. So far I have failed at both. For me plan is better, but still unsuccessful. 3) The method is of most importance. If the method itself is impossible for you, then you won’t succeed. Recently switched methods myself. I think this new method will suit me better. 4) Rushing into it makes it harder to do. This next attempt I’m gonna relax and take my time. 5) Giving away any signals prior to attempt. In the past I have failed at this in many ways. 6) Finding peace with your decision. If there are any doubts, they will surface right at the important time. I have already failed/backed off 6 times, 5 of them this year. Log in to Reply ikki 5/20/2015 - 10:06 am This is messed up. Log in to Reply R5 5/20/2015 - 7:21 pm I don’t think that you didn’t do it because you’re a coward. I think it’s because there is something there that stops you, something you think it’s worth living for. You should hang on to that. Log in to Reply alonelybird 5/21/2015 - 6:40 am I’ll try but I’ve been hanging on to that thing for quite a while. Log in to Reply BadYear 5/21/2015 - 9:32 am I have hireditory depression… If it’s the same as my brother, I will be in this suicidal and very painful lost state for about 2 years… I have done a year already… 1 more to go… (Several suicide attempts, coma, locked wards etc not fun so far). Not a year ago I was one of the most confident and highly successful woman in london… Now I can barely afford a pack of rollies or make it out the door to get them, but I have hope… 1 more year… Maybe it’s the same for you? Maybe there is a light, you just have to hit rock bottom first and sadly stay there and take it for a bit… But the crying will release a bit of pain and also sometimes give a little clarity after… Best of luck x Log in to Reply alonelybird 5/21/2015 - 11:09 pm Thank you, it might be I’m not sure but I’ve been this way for about a year. I’m glad you have hope. Log in to Reply doe 5/21/2015 - 9:27 pm I think you’re going about this the wrong way. You’re not a coward, and I’ll tell you why. Living is really, really hard. It’s so much easier to just die. People do it all the time. In fact, scientists predict that there have been more than 100 billion births since the dawn of the human age, but at this exact moment, only 7.3 billion people are alive. You’re part of the 7.3% that have made it. Wild, isn’t it? YOU have made it this far when the majority of people have died. YOU are a success, and if anything, that takes courage. You could have easily died at any time you wanted to, but backing out means that you’re stronger than that. You should keep going just to prove to yourself that you are courageous and strong, just like I know you are. I can see it. Log in to Reply alonelybird 5/21/2015 - 10:54 pm You might be able to see it but i can’t. Why should I be trying to prove that I’m courageous and strong though? Log in to Reply Arabella 5/24/2015 - 10:34 pm try to get through this. I was seconds from dying today, and the thought of anyone feeling the way I did makes me cringe. please, people out there will miss you so much more than you realize. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.