I’m thinking about taking my own life. My mom is my only family member and tonight we had a bad arguement. I said a lot of really mean things. I feel I was justified in being irritated, even angry, but I shouldn’t have been so mean. One of these arguments happened only 2 weeks ago. I have caused my mom so much pain with the mean things I’ve said over the years. I’ve also put her through so much with my mental and physical health problems. I honestly feel I should have never been born. When these fights happen with my mom, I seriously consider taking my life. I also suffer from depression and borderline personality disorder. I also feel like taking my life due to the depression. I’ve had many therapies, but they haven’t helped much. Anyway, I don’t know exactly when or if I’ll go through with suicide. I think eventually it will come to that.
I know killing myself would cause my mom more pain, which is one reason why I haven’t done it. I honestly just think I should never have been born. I feel stuck because I want to die, and as stated, I think I deserve to, but it will cause more pain.