I’m sorry I just can’t do this anymore. I’m done with hope. I’m done with everything. I’ve lost everything and there is nothing left for me. I don’t want to live anymore. And there is no use for me anyway. Nobody will change my mind. I’ve already chosen what to do. I can’t even cry anymore. I’m not scared to die anymore. I am 100% sure of what I should do. And nobody will ever change my mind. This life is hell. And I don’t want to deal with it anymore. I will be free and so happy. And so will everybody else.
This is not the first time I want to do this. But today I just can’t go on anymore. There’s no use. I’m done…
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I can empathize with what you’re feeling, except I don’t believe death brings happiness and freedom. I think we simply stop existing, we are extinguished, back to the same state of non-existence like before we were conceived.
Also realize if you have any loved ones, they will not feel any happiness or freedom if you die. You will be complicating the burdens of their own lives.
At the same time, life can be unbearable painful and only you can decide whether to keep living or not. A big part of life is suffering, there is no way around that, we can only either learn to live with it or not.
Hopefully getting your thoughts and feelings out has helped you feel a little better in the short term. I hope you decide that today’s not the day and give yourself some space and time before doing anything harmful to yourself.
I know you are trying to be helpful, but you are making a lot of assumptions. First of all, how can you possibly know what comes after death? No one knows for sure. We can all theorize about it until we turn blue in the face. But no one knows what is waiting for us out there.
Second, you assume that the poster has not thought about it enough. You suggest that if he/she gives it time and space, things will change. That is a very arrogant suggestion, in my opinion. To assume that you know what is best. I know you are try to be helpful, but you end up minimizing the poster’s own thought process. Did it occur to you that the poster has already done what you suggest, a million times over? That the poster has already considered every possibility that you might come up with? Have you thought about that?
This blind belief that time necessarily improves things, is just plain nonsense. Take it from someone that has experienced time making things worse. It happens.
Well-said, coquelicot!
As I said to another poster a few minutes ago: I feel your pain. I wish you nothing but success.
There can be hope, because humans have the power to help and heal each other.
In my personal experience, I realized that everyone is accepted for who they really are and that lead me to have faith in humanity. My hope is that I can build a better humanity. But as a caution: one shouldn’t have to die for humanity – if people are dying to save others, it means we didn’t try hard enough to solve the problem to begin with.