I’m not a human being to anyone. All my friends are fake and liars, full of shit, false hopes and false promises.
The guy I had fallen for bitches endlessly about how alone he is, how bad he wants someone, and how he needs to be loved bit ignores me like I don’t exist. No response means that I don’t matter and I don’t count for shit. As I never have in life.
Even people here are wrong and full of it. My only replies are on what women want and how to get a woman when I have said I am not interested in women! I am attracted to men! But being a transgender man attracted to men means being alone for all eternity. Gay men have no interest either and frankly I have no interest in the GAP wearing preppy dance clubbing gay population because I am a heavily tattooed rocker who wants the same. Having common interests matters to me.
I’m sick of the psychobabble “you’ll find somebody!” bullshit LIES people tell me to avoid taking any responsibility of friendship towards me that they claim to have. I’m sick of being the one everyone believes was born to be shit on and it’s OK to shit on. I’m not here to be everyone’s punching bag. I wish they would all have to suffer a lifetime of loneliness, isolation and being a laughing stock regarded as less than human the way I’m forced to live. Every second of every day I am lower than everyone else on earth and see disgusted looks from everyone around, angry they have to have come across someone with so many obvious less than human classifications stacked upon one another. I’m a plague in this world, born and living with everything wrong with me on the outside that could possibly be wrong and turn others off. I have no one, no friends, no family, nobody, nothing. I’m done being treated like shit. The silence tells me that my feelings don’t matter, I sicken you, and you want me to go away. Don’t worry I will find a way to kill myself and I hope it fucking haunts you for the rest of your life.