My inner turmoil

I think knowing the tremendous amount of pain and problems you leave behind has stopped a lot of people. I know it’s held me at bay in moments of intense despair. Even the tiniest, most unlikely chance of hope tends to have the same effect on me. Even if the chances of something are one in a billion trillion, from a strictly mathematical point, there’s still a chance. Kinda like playing the lottery. Sometimes you win a buck or two and all you can do is hold on to the little victories in life.