CANT TAKE ONE MORE DAY IN THIS HELL OF A LIFE . LIFE HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT PAIN. I’M IN SO MUCH EMOTIONAL PAIN. WITH UNCARING NARCISSISTIC VAMPIRES U WANNA CALL PEOPLE. PARENTS ARE ALSO! AND EVERY SON OF A ***** MAN I ALLOWED INTO MY LIFE HAS BEEN! I’VE BEEN USED AND ABUSED OVER AND FUCKING OVER AND OVER AGAIN! I WAS BORN TO TWO UNCARING EMOTIONAL VAMPIRES YOU WANNA CALL PARENTS, WITH A CRIPPLING ANXIETY DISORDER THAT I’VE HAD SINCE I WAS 5 PROB DUE TO ALL THE EMOTIONAL ABUSE OF MY SICK VAMPIRE OF A MOTHER I HATE EVEN CALLING HER A MOTHER SHES FAR FROM IT, ALL THAT WITCH DID WAS PUT ME DOWN EMOTIONALLY ABUSE ME FOR YEARS AND I’VE BEEN A MESS EVER SINCE , STILL CANT EVEN GET AWAY FROM THE COW. TRIED EVERYTHING. DOCTORS MEDS.. EVERYTHING IS A BULLSHIT JOKE, MAYBE IF I HAD SOME TINY SUPPORT IN MY LIFE I WOULD OF BEEN BETTER OFF! BUT NOPE. TREATED LIKE SHIT FROM DAY ONE. MY FATHER THE BASTARD HE IS NEVER WANTED ME AND UP AND ABANDONED ME AND MY MOTHER WHEN I WAS 3 AND LEFT ME WITH THE COW OF AN ABUSIVE *****, OH YEAH NOT SAYING EVERYTHING SHOULD BE HANDED BUT HES A FUCKING MILLIONAIRE AND HASN’T BARELY LIFTED A PENNY TO HELP ME AS I WAS GROWING UP! THE GREEDY BASTARD HE IS, HARDLY WOULD CALL WAS ONLY AROUND ON WEEKENDS WHEN I WAS A KID! AND HAD ME AROUND CUZ HE HAD TO BY LAW. !! EVERYTHING ELSE WAS ALWAYS MORE IMPORTANT TO HIM THE NARCISSIST HE IS AS WELL. !
GOOD THING NOW IM OLD ENOUGH (24) TO REALIZE SOMETHING WAS OFF WITH MY PARENTS ! I STARTED TO SEE !OH GEEE THIS ISN’T NORMAL!! PARENTS SHOULDN’T BE THIS WAY ! AS I WOULD SEE EVERYONE ELSE S PARENTS ALL LOVING AND KIND AND GIVING A SHIT! THAT’S WHEN IT STARTED TO HIT ME WAS WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL AND I SAID WOW! MOTHERS AREN’T SUPPOSE TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE UTTER SHIT AND DRIVE YOU INTO A PANIC DISORDER.!!
SPEAKING OF MY DEMONS THAT HAVE BEEN WITH ME MY ENTIRE LIFE MY HUGE PANIC DISORDER/ANXIETY PROBLEM THAT IS THE WORST ITS EVER BEEN YET! DEPRESSION NOW AS WELL ALL CAVING IN MY HEAD JUST EATING AT MY HEAD. AND IM SO FUCKING ALONE IM LIKE THE NICEST MOST CARING PERSON AND I HAVE NOBODY WHO GIVES A SHIT! IVE WENT OUT OF MY WAY FOR BOYFRIENDS AND FRIENDS IN THE PAST AND YOU KNOW WHAT?! THEY ALL DON’T FUCKING CARE AND ARE MOST OF THE TIME SELF CENTERED NARCISSISTS JUST AS MY PARENTS BECAUSE THAT’S ALL IVE KNOWN HOW TO ATTRACT MY WHOLE LIFE !!!!!!!! I HAD TO COME ON HERE AND LET IT ALL OUT IM EMOTIONALLY BLEEDING SITTING HERE….TO BE CONTINUED.
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you don’t worry. I can feel your pain.
=( yes its horrible.. god bless .. if there is a god who knows at this point
Yeah i fucking hate my parents too i hope they die a horrible death.
i have those feelings as well from all the pain they caused
Sorry to hear about your childhood. I had a pretty rough childhood myself. The only thing that has helped is letting go of the anger toward my parents. My parents had a tough go of it in childhood as well. My dad killed himself at age 20. My mother attempted suicide a few months after my father’s death. They were just kids that made the mistake of having a child before they were ready. I’m not excusing their irresponsibility. I just understand now how broken they were and realizing that hating them ends up hurting me in the end. I’ve already wasted too much of my life focusing on things that I cannot change.
thanks that was so sad to read you are very right u cant change anyone sadly
THANKS FOR THE COMMENTS GUYS .. IM JUST SO FED UP WITH IT ALL.. =(
You have so much stress to deal with, and you have experienced so much painful disappointment. I hope you will be able to find the courage and strength to keep going and not give up hope.