I read all the web and got plenty of advice. I know there’s always hope and all the stuff, but I think it straight to it and my decision is that I HAVE TO go. Please don’t tell me not to, with all due respect I will ignore the post.
I would like to know a way to day that is easy to commit. Cutting my veins isn’t easy, not because of the pain but because it takes a lot of effort fighting my instinct. My body does not want to die. I am a 26 yo male, perfectly healty, weight 80 kg and I am used to alcohol and drugs so isn’t possible to overdose with something easy to find. I don’t know an enough high place to jump. I don’t have and can’t get firearms.
I live in hell now and I have to kill the man who put me into this: me.