I just can’t stop this feeling of terror inside of me… I can’t stop crying… The pain won’t stop… I will never had the life I dreamed of, I’ve fallen too far… Now I can’t get out of this spiral down…
I tried to kill myself so many times but it doesn’t work with overdoses… The maximum I got was a coma once… I can’t seem to cut myself… Just cut for pain relief… It hurts all the time now…
The sad thing is no one can help me, not even me, it’s just a slow and painful death… But I never get to die… I prayed so many times for God to release me, to give me a quick and painless death, but I’m still here….
With all my heart I wish I wasn’t here anymore and this pain would just end….
I think they should legalise assisted suicide in the UK… No one should suffer this pain… It’s not a life, living with this pain, it’s only misery….
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Government’s have been avoiding the issue of assisted dying so as not to become unpopular. People are suffering because politicians have made a decision because of self-interest. We certainly don’t live in a society where all our freedoms are being upheld and as I’ve seen over the years most people will bury their head in the sand and pretend it isn’t happening because we all know our protests will go ignored. The truth is we are not free, there is nothing we can do about it and as a result we choose oppression because we are unable to oppose the establishment.
It’s true is I was a millionaire, or the son of a banker or generally happy the above would not be an issue. So I have a choice. Either I find a way to acquire things other people desire or be quiet. This is the world that the majority of people on sites like this sign up to because there isn’t really anything else but they’ll defend that belief system over everything else. I’m now immune from suffering. The world can’t hurt me anymore and at least I have that.
Only 9 cigarettes left. I have to last another 16 hours or so with just 9 cigarettes.
Anxiety is my lingering companion.
Austerity measures are in full effect. I can only ration one cigarette per hour, assuming I sleep smokeless for eight hours or so.
I’ll probably dream about cigarettes tonight. I’ll dream that I ran out, then i’ll wake up and smoke one of the last remaining.
Like you, I’m no stranger to pain.
Uh hey… gotta smoke?
That’s a close call Morris. 10 and you might scrape through but 9, even I wouldn’t bet on that.
It’s all about defying the odds, H_D.
I feel like Luke Skywalker flying into the death star (or whatever) and I’ve only got one shot. It’s do or die.
Maybe this is how survivors of a ship wreck or plane crash feel.
You’re stranded miles away from civilization and you only have a handful of cigarettes.
How now, brown cow? How does one endure an experience as harrowing as this?!? The ultimate test of strength: Rationing cigarettes.
I will survive.
Luke Skywalker had the force. The odds were stacked in his favour. What have you got? 9 Marlboro, please don’t tell me they’re lights. If I were you, I would remove the filter to obtain maximum nicotine intake.
I doubt Luke Skywalker smoked. Darth Vader probably did. Jesus, that guy was a loud breather.
Plus, good guys don’t smoke in (modern) movies. Only bad guys smoke.
Marlboro Lights? ***** please. You think I drink Diet Coke too? I prefer my carcinogens full strength and unadulterated, thank you very much. I want to EARN cancer, not just get gifted with it.
Nigel Farage smokes on television and he’s one of the good guys despite being portrayed by the BBC, Channel 4 and several newspapers as a bad man. In case he’s frequenting the site: WE STILL LOVE YOU NIGEL. Anyway, yeah I knew you wouldn’t be on lights because those are for girls. They raise the taxes n cigarettes and alcohol by claiming we are a burden on the NHS when the truth is we die before then and more importantly before claiming a state pension. The truth is, we pay for their healthcare and it’s these misconceptions that are being drilled into the youth of today. Sad really.
I was just thinking today: For as much as smokers are vilified, we should get Happy Hour prices on food and drinks while we’re alive. Yeah?
We’re gonna die soon. We like to drink, eat and smoke. Cut us a deal and we’ll drink eat and smoke like there’s no tomorrow. It’s good business for the bar, plus I’ll hire them to cater my funeral. (A non denominational religion free funeral that’s mostly just an excuse to get drunk and get laid after some random ass hat done died).
We never get funeral homes advertising on this site. It’s mainly witch doctors, psychics, spell casters and ******** sellers. Kinda makes you wonder who the audience is based on the advertisers.
I’m not saying the others aren’t but funeral homes tend to be legitimate businesses.
The average life expectancy now is 80+ years in western countries. A person who dies in their 60’s is more likely to go on their feet which is what most of us want. I’m not going to refrain from eating, drinking or smoking what I like for the sake of adding a few years. I hope I die from a heart attack. That would be ideal.
It is weird how advertisers here pander to the desperate as opposed to the rational, critical thinker types.
You know something? If there’s an afterlife and all the suicidal s get clumped together, I’d probably not want to hang around with them. I’d hang around with the fun dead people.
Dr Obodo has some good deals so you’ll be missing out on those. I’d be very popular almost everybody would like me so it would just be too difficult for me to isolate myself or join a particular group.
*sigh*
Forgive me for sounding like a snobby elitist, but I’d rather wipe my ass with my fingers than pay a witch doctor to cast a spell for me.
C’mon. What is this? The year 1510? Who the fuck believes in casting spells!?!
Is the world flat?!
Will ships sailing to the map’s edges fall off into space?
You could also smoke half of each at a time. Worked for me when i used to smoke. That way you’d have 18 cigarretes! (yeah, sad, i know, but it’s better than nothing).
I don’t think Morris is the kind of man who takes half measures. It’s all or nothing.
Yeah, i figured that much, lol. Can’t argue with that tho, like you said before, who wants to get to 80+? i often wonder what’s the point on increasing people’s life span just for the sake of it.
My granddad suffered a stroke but he drank hard liquor and not beer. He used to blow his brains almost every day and that’s why. We’ve come to an agreement now within my immediate family that no one will be allowed to live in that debilitating state. I’ve signed documents that go into great detail that will exonerate anyone who chooses to help me.
There are a lot of people who want to extend their life for their own enjoyment or family. I am not able to enjoy life in that way so my situation is different to there’s. I’m not right but I think it’s right for me.
I doubt that it will be legalized on a grand scale. It’s funny because i read your other post and you mention you snapped even if you had everything you wanted, and that’s exactly why they’ll never legalize suicide. How could they admit publicly that the current way the world works makes people go crazy? how could they admit that the current goals that are seen as what you have to achieve in life in order to be successful amount to nothing more than frustration in the end? how much power and money would be lost in the process of admiting that?
In that sense you have to ask yourself, even if you say you had it all, why did you snap? was there something else you’d rather be doing? what played a part on things going bad? maybe you could see it as an opportunity to recognize what was wrong, instead of just seeing it as a downward spiral.
I don’t even know what to say. If you haven’t died yet is probably because you still have a reason to be here. You tried multiple times and that somehow makes you brave. I don’t know how to explain it but I’m kind of a coward. Only attempted it once and ever since the only thing I do is think about it. I wanna see mom again so I’m just waiting for my time. I’ve been ready but I guess death isn’t ready for me just yet. Stay strong.
What was the reason… I guess I could blame it on many factors, my dads drinking and susequemtial death, being raped at 13 as a virgin, being bullied at school, growing up without a mum because she was too busy partying and DJ’ing, I could blame it on a lot of things, but when it comes down to it, I guess I am scared how I will live in this life… I expected better, I thought I would be married, with a baby, living in a nice house, but nothing in this life turned out the way I thought, every man has cheated on me, I was in the top 1% in the UK for salaries and yet could still only afford a shoebox to live in, I am still unmarried and at 32 I am coming off the market for first time marriages, where you settle down and have kids, and I will have to work every day for the rest of my life, to die alone.. All my motivation to continue has gone and I guess that’s what started it… From there it went into depression, lost my job, lost my partner (started dating woman because men had just let me down), lost my dogs, lost my home, and cry everyday, and from next week will be homeless, applying for emergency homeless support, but they are saying because I haven’t lived in this area for longer than 2 years it puts me at a low priority… Which means what??? After the thousands of pounds I paid each month to the govoutnment, that when I actually need them, they give me the middle finger??? This country is a big fucking joke!!!!
The minimum they should give me is if I can’t support myself and they won’t help me, to help with assisted suicide instead of me wandering the streets for a slow and humiliating death…