I’ve been depressed for 4 years now. It wasnt that bad in the beginning but as time went by it has gotten nothing but worse to the point where now it literally takes up my entire brain. Every single second of my life except for the time I am unconscious (sleeping) is spent being eaten alive by my depression, unable to think about anything else. How can I not be? I am literally the biggest piece of shit in the world. You think you or someone you know is as worse as can be you are dead wrong because you haven’t heard about me yet, I’m about as bad as humanly possible. I could write an entire book about my 2000 problems that I have, to name a few, I have no interests, i spend every single day in my house refusing to leave, staring at my computer screen my entire life, I have no friends, I sleep 3-4 hours a day, too unconfident to do anything in my life, eat extremely unhealthy everyday, fail in school due to extreme laziness and I’m going to end it here because I can go years. There is no motivation for me to be alive especially with nothing to look forward too because of no interest. When you are this bad and hopeless there is no point too. Life is full of sorrow, work, hardship etc. all for these few moments of joy that I do not get because I am NEVER happy. Life is meaningless anyway we will all be dead at the end. I would be doing myself a great justice to just be gone sooner then later. Not like anyone cares anyway. I find it amazing people here want to end their life over a couple of mistakes or problems because I have millions. Thanks for the few that took the time to read this I guess as I go on my rant that I needed to get out. There is no hope for me
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I was with you until the end of your post. Why make comparisons? You may think your problems are the worst, but guess what? There is no such thing as worst. Everyone’s problems are unique to their own situation. This is not a contest. There is no minimum requirement to want to kill yourself.
You say you have a lot of problems. I believe you. So do I and all of us here. You say you have no interest in anything. I’ve become the same way the past few months. If you read the posts, most of us struggle with motivation and purpose. Something to live for.
It would be more helpful if you would share some details of your problems. How did they get started? What have you done in order to remedy the situation? Therapy? Meds?
We will try to help if we can.
Some people don’t know any better. All the movie stars and musicians that kill themselves, they realize that even with money, and all options open, they are still unhappy. You can’t blame people for their ignorance. I work in homes of people that think its a problem and are genuinely worried, because they cant pick which lavish car to buy. This woman going on a cruise, to get away, because she just “works soo much”. Shes talking to people who work months straight.
That was a rant, but I’m saying, to a teenager, maybe not having the best clothes, or OH GOD, their parents are divorced, lol. Everyone takes s#!$ different. I come here to get out my problems, I dont expect anyone to help, but its nice to see others lives arent perfect.
Maybe you could share why your so troubled, save from just being unhappy.
I once read about an artist who finished a painting and then realized he painted a carriage wheel backwards, so he killed himself. When it comes right down to it, there’s no absolute unit of measurement for pain because we each take it differently. Like you said, rich people & celebrities have “problems” that would be blessings to us down in the trenches. But they still kill themselves, and that beats anything I’ve ever done so far. So you could say that painter and his carriage wheel had bigger problems than any of us. Same thing goes for teenagers who kill themselves because they can’t get a prom date or whatever. When it comes to the point of suicide we’re all equals.
Reading your post made me wonder whether I’ve been sleep complaining again.
I am in the exact same boat. Life is shit. Drinking alcohol right now for the first time in months and it’s cheered me up ever so slightly. Alcoholism sounds good right now.
You have it bad but my way to death i will take it like a last journey vacation or trip toward my end so I can complitate along the way making it worth it and special because life isn”t.
I’ll make my end a project of enlightment!!!!!!!!!
I have found, and is still finding my problems overwhelming. In the end I started working in a place where people have overwhelming problems as well. It has given some perspective to my own problems. But at the end of the day I am still stuck with my own problems. I still have to suffer with them. Our own problems stay the greatest problem for ourselves. Most people kill themselves because of their own problems.
I am here on this site due to my own struggle with the invitation of suicide.