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by falling_soup

today has been the longest of days. Yet the day isn’t even over yet. I feel very suicidal and alone. I do not see a point of me being here. I have been trying to do the best I can and no one gives a flying fuck. I am done done done. My suicide date is on Monday. I am going to attempt. Fuck you all for crushing and stomping on my heart when I needed you the most. I am sorry that I can’t be better. whats wrong with me and why can’t I be better! I am giving up on myself and what I call the shattered parts of my self esteem. The one place I turn to and I get shit on. I have been trying to do the best I can to keep afloat. Now it’s my turn to say goodbye.  “Goodbye”

xo, Falling_Soup

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MoonShine 5/7/2015 - 4:17 pm

I am sorry you are having such a hard time and so much in pain right now.You are not alone. you can email me anytime whenever you wants to talk. my email is “dropsunshine @ yahoo . in” with spaces removed.i thinks that your “fuck you all” sentence was for outsiders. SP is a good group of people here which are very caring and understanding.
Thinking of you and hoping things look better for you very soon.

itstimetogo2015 5/8/2015 - 9:03 pm

I don’t get it either and it makes me angry and sad when it happens. I’m new to sp but it does seem that everyone here is in the corner of anyone who needs support.

I’m so sorry that the people who are physically there are the ones furthest away.

SarahDe 5/11/2015 - 8:37 pm

You can’t fight this alone. I care about you. You probably need more help from others than from that person you’ve depended on, because again, you can’t fight this alone. If you ask your family and friends, they’ll probably be willing to help you. You are doing your best — that makes you shine even brighter. This all the more shows that surely you are liked. Your best will inspire others to do their best. To do what you’re doing, is very admirable.

SarahDe 5/11/2015 - 8:37 pm

You can’t fight this alone. I care about you. You probably need more help from others than from that person you’ve depended on, because again, you can’t fight this alone. If you ask your family and friends, they’ll probably be willing to help you. You are doing your best — that makes you shine even brighter. This all the more shows that surely you are liked. Your best will inspire others to do their best. To do what you’re doing, is very admirable.

Mf 5/11/2015 - 8:49 pm

I could say that in my case, for every person that has cared, i’ve met 100 that doesn’t, so in that sense you could say that it only should care to you. If others care, great, but it’s just an added bonus that you should never rely on (at least to me). In the end all we can do is try, but it’s your choice to decide when is enough. Just wanted to say that whatever you end up doing, i wish you for the best.

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