I have been thinking for years that this stupid life should stop.
No purpose, what am i living for?
I m hearing those voices in my head saying “i want to die” over and over again, I was feeling better once i said it to my future ex wife, but now she is gone.
It was not easy to keep it in myself, thinking of it everyday, failing at my feeble tries. My cat wake me up when i was falling asleep with a bag on my head, when having a fight with my wife, that knife i had in my hand, didnt had the edge to open my throat… i m pathetic…
I have chronic pain and it s tiring… fed up of it
I have work, i have money to live, i have loving animals, i just have no fucking purpose.
I found an easy method to do it and everything is ready
why cant i do it?
why is life so purposeless?