My life is shit for many reasons and i am destined to suffer until the last second that i will live in this hell. And the worst thing is that i honestly believe that i don’t deserve this kind of life. I was always a good person, respected & help others and NEVER done anything bad to anyone. So why i am living this hell? I want to enjoy what others are enjoying… but instead i will never have a girlfriend because i am so fucking short, ugly and child looking, i will never have a family and i will become a fucking miserable 80 year old and then die alone like i never existed in this fucking place. Yes, i as well wanted many things in this life but unlike others, i will be unable to even try to achieve them because i was unlucky and born with the worst genes possible. I always wanted to become an athlete, but no because you are born so weak and skinny i am not allowed. I would have like to know how to play a music instrument, but no because my fucking parents didn’t give a damn when i was young and never sent me somewhere to learn. I as well wanted to go out with friend and have fun all the time, but no because i look like this shit and i’m depressed all the time, i don’t. I locked myself in my fucking room for days doing nothing and there is nothing that can help me. Thinking of my even worse future makes me even more depressed
That’s so unfair… i just wanted to be that fucking normal, average man like the other 98% of people of my age. Why i am so unlucky. I did nothing wrong man… I hate god for this (if there is any) and even when i die and go in hell, it will be a much better place for me than here
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
10 comments
How old are you? Being self defeating isn’t good. Everyone has good things about them. Looks aren’t everything Either. If a specific girl only cares about looks than they aren’t one you want to be with. Personality can go a long way.
What are your measurements ?
In order for someone to love you and you to love them. You have to be okay with yourself. Look how many of your words are reinforcing self hate. There is a lot that can help you.. namely get in the driver’s seat of your life.
You can have a gf in ten minutes,, I dont care what you look like. Love has a nothing (as in zero) to do with looks. Attraction does,, but not love. Be passionate, just yourself. Do what youlove and that will sustain you in the meantime. It is also very attractive to others.
‘Follow your bliss’ (as Joseph Campbell would tell all his students). But seriously. IN this state, even if you had a girlfriend, you would end up suffering even more bc you would be so emotionally unbalanced and dependent, it would stunt all progress. Desire fades. Love evolves and often fades.
So stop f’g caring so much about the superficial BS society tells us is so important. How tall you are, how much hair, what car, money, how skinny, etc. I’ve met plenty of rich and physically beautiful miserable people.
It would be great if everyone started their post with their age. I dont know if youre 16 or 40..
IM betting 22-25. It gets better when you start being better to yourself. Life isnt fair. It’s brutal. 8 year old die horrible deaths from cancer, starvation, murder. You need to focus on what you can control. Namely your attitude and activities.
Either we suffer or we learn to escape suffering by engaging the reality that are we not what we feel. (I put that line in almost every post I make here bc it’s so true). Direct yourself. Learn to be independent. Wanna meet a girl? Go to Craigslist, to ‘activity partners and go skating or take a salsa class, or taking photos and be friendly and not self-absorbed.
Lighten up. Love yourself that you may love another person and someone may love you back. (Personally.. I dont even care any more abt being with someone and I was the neediest person on earth, so major change is possible, over time, with intention and focus. Look what you wrote. You did not but pour derision on and feel sorry for yourself. Is that the kind of person you want to be? If not, be the kind of person you wish to me. Life is actually more about how we make up our mind than almost anything else, bc that determines how we respond to the various conditions we will have to deal with. (As wayne dwyer said ‘When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.’ It is very true.
Here’s another quotable for you:
‘When you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.’ Lisa Unge
Ill post in sections bc this site has a fear of long posts:
What are your measurements ?
In order for someone to love you and you to love them. You have to be okay with yourself. Look how many of your words are reinforcing self hate. There is a lot that can help you.. namely get in the driver’s seat of your life.
You can have a gf in ten minutes,, I dont care what you look like. Love has a nothing (as in zero) to do with looks. Attraction does,, but not love. Be passionate, just yourself. Do what youlove and that will sustain you in the meantime. It is also very attractive to others.
‘Follow your bliss’ (as Joseph Campbell would tell all his students). But seriously. IN this state, even if you had a girlfriend, you would end up suffering even more bc you would be so emotionally unbalanced and dependent, it would stunt all progress. Desire fades. Love evolves and often fades. So stop caring so much about the superficial BS society tells us is so important. How tall you are, how much hair, what car, money, how skinny, etc. I’ve met plenty of rich and physically beautiful miserable people.
…
Thanks for the long comment. I am 18 and things are not as ”easy” as you are saying. How is possible to ”be ok with myself” while at the same time this self, ruins my life and will never allow me to find happiness due to the reasons mentioned? And if you are unattractive most girls will not bother learning how you are inside even if you are a very beautiful inside. So appearance does matters.
Everyone has their own personal view on themselves. Some of it completely rational and some just come from out of no where. In my opinion. No one should ever be completely okay with themselves. That little bit of self hatred can be a good thing of pushing yourself to exercise educate yourself and many other things. Key word in all of this is “little”. If the self hatred is too much than you can’t achieve your goals. You’ll just never get out of bed.
It would be great if everyone started their post with their age. I dont know if youre 16 or 40..
IM betting 22-25. It gets better when you start being better to yourself. Life isnt fair. It’s brutal. 8 year old die horrible deaths from cancer, starvation, murder. You need to focus on what you can control. Namely your attitude and activities.
Either we suffer or we learn to escape suffering by engaging the reality that are we not what we feel. (I put that line in almost every post I make here bc it’s so true). Direct yourself. Learn to be independent. Wanna meet a girl? Go to Craigslist, to ‘activity partners and go skating or take a salsa class, or taking photos and be friendly and not self-absorbed.
Lighten up. Love yourself that you may love another person and someone may love you back. (Personally.. I dont even care any more abt being with someone and I was the neediest person on earth, so major change is possible, over time, with intention and focus. Look what you wrote. You did not but pour derision on and feel sorry for yourself. Is that the kind of person you want to be? If not, be the kind of person you wish to me. Life is actually more about how we make up our mind than almost anything else, bc that determines how we respond to the various conditions we will have to deal with. (As wayne dwyer said ‘When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.’ It is very true.
Forget it.. lol,,
cant post here with getting this nonsense: ‘Your comment is awaiting moderation.’
lemme see if this part will post: ‘It would be great if everyone started their post with their age. I dont know if youre 16 or 40..
IM betting 22-25. It gets better when you start being better to yourself. Life isnt fair. It’s brutal. 8 year olds die horrible death. Focus on what you can control. Namely your attitude and activities. Either we suffer or we learn to escape suffering by engaging the reality that are we not what we feel. (I put that line in almost every post I make here bc it’s so true). Direct yourself. Learn to be independent.
Wanna meet a girl? Go to Craigslist, to ‘activity partners and go skating or take a salsa class, or taking photos and be friendly and not self-absorbed.
Lighten up. Love yourself that you may love another person and someone may love you back.
I totally get it. No matter how positive your thoughts, how positive your outlook, when it doesn’t seem to yield anything time and again, this is where the frustration comes out. You’re just at a frustrating point right now and this is just how you feel about it.
I hope that when intensity dies down (it will) you find a way around future ones and find another focal point to work on in your life. Some things you can control, but they are much deeper inside and can only bee seen by others (a girl or guy friends) through you. The more you have these feelings like this, the more the cycle sticks. Hang in and give yourself a break if you can.
There’s just so much you can do to increase your chances of getting what you want in life, the rest is just plain and pure random. There’s godawful ugly people living a happy life as there is drop dead gorgeous people living misery (i think that looks are highly subjective tho). I’m average looking and my story is similar to yours, so looks really don’t play that much into it.
There is one thing tho, you are right by saying that you don’t deserve that kind of life. Actually you don’t deserve anything by some cosmic sense or grand design, no one does. If you are good and nice to others it might come back to you or not, but nothing is certain, and in many cases you’ll run into people that will see you as a tool, but a few might really appreciate your efforts. What i’m getting at is that even if all your circumstances were different you could still be in the same spot. All you can do is put all your effort into improving things. I really wish you luck.