A common question

I think we all ask ourselves is what if we just hold on one more day, one more week, etc. It’s that natural survival question we all ask ourselves, and it’s probably while we are all still here today. I know it’s why I am. Those lonely nights I had dozens of bottles of stockpiled medications sitting right near my bedside, those nights I had access to firearms, those nights where I could’ve jumped off a tall building. I’m still here because I still have that survival instinct asking me what if? What if things get better one day? I know it’s not going to be tomorrow or even in the next couple years and that’s bitter pill to swallow sometimes, but I keep telling myself that maybe it might be worth it. To live out those years when things get better rather than just ending it all now. ‘Cause once it’s over, it is over. For good. No second chances, no more feelings. I just ask everyone to just hold on, depression is the mind’s natural defense mechanism, please don’t feel you are alone, even if there is nobody next to you right now, there are people out there who share a similar struggle I promise. I love you.