As I type this, I’m sitting on a beach completely alone. I have no one, in the very end I’m alone. Friends are hanging out, couples are walking the beach holding hands, how did I end up like this? What is wrong with me that I have no one? I can’t be that unlikable i hope. Is god punishing me or something?. I met a girl, long distance though, though she really don’t like me for who I am, just for what I am. Can I not find any one real? Everyone is so fucking fake. Well I better get used to it, this is my life now. Empty and sorrowful. I know no one on here gives a shit about my life, I’m just another sad stranger on here. But at least someone will have an idea of what I go through day by day. I’m sorry god, I tried, you gave me the tools and I failed. I don’t know if your real or not, but I failed nonetheless. And I can’t fix it, I never could figure out how to have a happy life.
How can I be strong when my mind works against me, I thought it would be easy to fight this, but it’s turning out to be incredibly hard. I will still fight because I believe there is still hope for my life, and that I will find it no matter how much suffering and blood it takes. I will claw my way out of this severe depression. And see the light of day once more.
Nope there’s no hope for me. That’s pretty apparent. I want to die.