Captain.

I pick up my day as the weight I know mine
And push through the clouds again, time within time.
I see you beside me, lain flat at my step
You offer your wings up one day to the next.
Your eyes, blue like diamonds, through darkness they shine
Promising rest in a world that’s all mine.
Day after day I walk past, and yet
That moment I pass is the one I regret.
When darkness descends, I know you’re in tow
Watching and waiting for me to let go.
When finally I tire, my energy ‘plete
There find our eyes; once finally meet.
Lost in the shadows, I’ll wander astray
Thinking a right turn has turned me to day.
You soft stop in my stride and whisper me clear
None of that weight, all will be left right here.
Through sky maps uncharted my soul will embark
I’ll follow your voice straight into the dark.
Black in the darkness amidst fear and fog
I’ll take heart and voyage with you from the storm.

I really just want to fucking do it. My entire being is aching. Begging me just to let go. I am in absolute torment, and so completely and entirely alone.