Hello everyone. I have been depressed for some time now. I’ve been to the hospital for it and stayed for about a week. I am married and my wife knows of my depression. while in the hospital they said that I have a general mood disorder and bi polar tendencies. With the mood disorder my mood can change in an instant. It can be triggered just by someone getting snippy with me or giving me attitude and I can help it.
The marriage overall has been good. But as of late there is a lot of stress and both of us are depressed. About a week ago we got in a little fight and after she left the house I was still very upset even though we talked about it and resolved it. So I hit the door upstairs and put a hole in it. Now after my wife came home she said she can’t take it anymore and went to stay at get mom’s when I was at work(which I hate my job) I didn’t even get to see her. She has barely talked to me and she says that she doesn’t know if she still wants to be with me. And when we talk I say I love you and sometimes she says it’s back ok but most of the time she mumbles is. And I ask if she really does and she says yes. I have said I’m sorry. She started seeing her therapist again and I’m pretty sure it’s over. I looked at her internet history and all she has searched is dissolution of marriage, courts, storage units, and apartments. But she keeps telling me she doesn’t know even though I’m pretty sure she had made up her mind. I’m at a complete loss. When we took our wedding vowels we said for better or for worse and in sickness and in health. I obviously have a mental sickness. And she doesn’t even seem to want to try and fix it.
I just don’t know want to do anymore, I’m so depressed. I just want to end it all please help.