I cared about her so much and she threw it away. It was my fault but goddammit that doesn’t make it hurt less. I’m such an ass. I made her do things she didn’t want to and I ruined it. I… I’m a selfish prick… I’m going to cry and wish I could die tonight, but I won’t. I’m better than that. But this won’t stop hurting. not for a long time. This burns. Hollywood Undead. Black Dahlia. Most of it applies, but not all. Fuck. I care so much about her. I just want to make her happy. I thought I’d be okay being just a friend forever but I’m not. I want her to be happy, with me or without me but I want it to be with me! I would have done anything for her, been anything. Painkiller, Fallen Angel, The Real You, Three Days Grace. I just… I don’t know who I am without her. She was everything to me, my best friend. I liked to deny it, say there were others, but there aren’t. She meant everything to me. She saved me. Little_Old_Me I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done this, but it hurt either way. You told me yours, I’ll tell you mine. It’s Andrew.