I’m tired. Nobody cares, and nobody cares on here most of the time, either. Social media is shit but then again so is life. At least I pour this out. I go to bed and can only sleep now with pills. The internet is as sick a place as the real world, in fact I think it is sicker b/c peoples’ real selves pour out. Lots of toxic crazies in the world, hiding behind their masks, here they don’t have to hide. The 21st century is one barbaric age despite all of our so-called advances. Technology is being used to do things like film “revenge porn”. We know too much thanks to all of the information overload.
I go to bed depressed and wake up even more depressed. Nobody cared about me at the judgmental full of shit church and in fact I saw an interesting article about why people are leaving churches that fit my situation to a T. I even emailed a woman pouring out my heart who ignored me, the same woman I called to ask why aren’t you coming to church. I worry about the poisons in the planet and in these seemingly harmless meds. I’ve been saying a novena to get rid of the evil whispering spirits that torment me b/c I’m isolated. I question God know but always did. Nobody cares about me unless I remind them I’m around, and even then I don’t think they really care about me. They don’t need to. Forgotten people are just that, forgotten.
I’m going to my church anyway today to fuck them all take the Eucharist to give me strength to keep going. My life has beaten me down to the ground and I can’t do it anymore. Nobody fucking gives a shit and nobody can do anything but judge you or tell you that what they would do is what you should do. I am fucking done with the horror show of this world and of csa, but I need to know someone cares before I kill myself. Since nobody has stepped up to the plate, now I am researching methods. Nobody’s life should be a sick horror ride. Like mine has been. Nothing good on this planet but animals and trees. Humans are filth, toxic waste, scum. I wish the earth would shake us all of tomorrow so it could heal. Give it back to the First Nation people. Let justice reign in this world far beyond the hell too many of us were given.
Humans are scum.
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*reads silvermoon’s post*
*checks off all points in agreement*
*sighs in resignation to the overwhelming forces of scum*
*goes off to pet his dog*
Hang in there man. We need good people to even out the odds.
“but I need to know someone cares before I kill myself.”
So you would still kill yourself if someone cared? Why would you do that to someone, In order to truly care about someone you have to spend time with them and develop a relationship on some level.
So my question to you is why would you let someone get close to you, why befriend someone just to leave them, why hurt someone like that?
PS I agree, Humans are pretty shitty.
Oh yeah, churches are more about gossip than the gospel now days. You would probably be better off not attending anymore.
I’m sorry you’re hurting so much—and I totally hear you.
humans are really big scum bags. humans needs to be eradicated.
People are indeed toxic. Those of us that are not seeking out others are better off that way.
In my short ‘life’ i have found that people online and offline are selfish, and don’t care, and WONT care.
they will never care. They will milk you dry and leave you with nothing…
they only want to talk if you are of use to THEM. then they are gone until you are ‘useful’ again.
most of the stuff in the media these days is done to corrupt people, well some then. people don’t need morals. They need to be mindless, selfish, careless minions…
i don’t know….
Salt Nameless One Moonshine About Done and Blomst thank you very much. I can only concur with your words. All of them. Nameless person I don’t have anybody who gives a shit about me in RL, not really…whey else would I be on here posting anonymously? I see your point I guess.
I feel the way you do, silvermoon. About wanting to be cared for before you die. It’s not like you want someone to fall into everlasting love and propose marriage just so you can off yourself. But just to know that you will be missed by someone in the world, I think that’s all we crave when we’re facing death. I guess you could also see it as validation. Nobody wants to die alone as if they never existed. I hope you find that person and furthermore, I hope that person can give you a reason to keep living.