So this is probably the only time I’m gonna use this, account. I just needed it to get out. To vent. Anyways.. here it is.
I think I’m starting to accept the fact that there’s something wrong with me, and that I’m a terrible person. I feel “empty,” don’t know exactly what that means except, you feel I dunno dead inside? None of my emotions feel real. I’m beginning to think I’m not normal, crazy even. One of these days, not today, nor tommorow I will end it. I just don’t belong here, I shouldn’t be here, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, my mind is filled with so many thoughts, I just wish I could get away from it. Get away from reality. Too feel something. I’ve tried everything that people say helps you feel.. I guess. Cutting, Alcohol, everything. Nothing seems to help me. I don’t feel the same anymore , I’m not the same anymore. I don’t know who I am, and I can’t take it anymore. I always feel alone, I feel like people only want me around so they won’t be alone. I feel like I’m the only one who feels this way. Am I? Probably. I really don’t have a point to write this, this long ass entry no one will probably even take the time to read. I have so many questions, but no fucking answers. So basically, I’m just tired of feeling this way. Some people say they would love to feel nothing. But.. I don’t know what’s worse for me.. feeling it all, or feeling nothing at all. But fuck it. I just don’t know what’s going on. And I’m tired of trying to figure it out. Does anyone feel this way? No? Probably not. Alone again. But whatever. I’m done. Bye.