I recently received my PhD in chemical engineering, I have a job in a good company and earn a decent salary. I’ve also been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I’ve never had a girlfriend although everybody says I’m a catch. Anyways I fell in love last week with a girl who’s way above me. She told me she loved me too. A week later she wants nothing to do with me. Now a normal dude would move on but every woman I have liked/loved had deserted me. Cold shoulder style. Is it okay if I just end it? I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of my therapist telling me I have everything going for me when my life is a pointless mess. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of wishing and hoping. I’m tired of thinking what will happen to the people I leave behind if I kill myself. I’m just so tired.