I recently received my PhD in chemical engineering, I have a job in a good company and earn a decent salary. I’ve also been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I’ve never had a girlfriend although everybody says I’m a catch. Anyways I fell in love last week with a girl who’s way above me. She told me she loved me too. A week later she wants nothing to do with me. Now a normal dude would move on but every woman I have liked/loved had deserted me. Cold shoulder style. Is it okay if I just end it? I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of my therapist telling me I have everything going for me when my life is a pointless mess. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of wishing and hoping. I’m tired of thinking what will happen to the people I leave behind if I kill myself. I’m just so tired.
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If you kill yourself, you will never find that one special person that was meant for you. You may have not found it yet, but sometimes it just takes longer for some people then others.
Success doesn’t always bring you happiness, though I desire to be in your position, salary and success-wise.
It’s no surprise that you’re feeling the way you are. Having bipolar disorder can really have an impact on the quality of a person’s life.
With women, you have the abundance of choice and time. It gets tiring after a while, being repeatedly rejected in some way, but you could take a break.
I don’t fully understand her actions, her deserting you after a week seems too quick. That, in my opinion, is already a clear indicator that she had no real interest in you. Not worth going for if she’s that fickle. I would not be content with a person like that.
If you end it, you will lose your chance to meet the person that you’re longing for right now. That chance is worth waiting for if you really want it.
I feel you.
The issue is that we are just tired about the same “positive arguments” that sound like empty words since no real actions take place. Its always easy to watch and speak from the sideline.