I want it to end

I’m tired I’ve been tired, I’m a walking fuckin skeleton with nothing left to give you can look at me and see I’m no longer here anymore. 24 years old or 4 this is all I’ve known, a never ending black hole I’ve gotten fuckin stupider and have ultimately fucked myself up even more. I’m sicker than sick, I’m fuckin sick and feel like nothing in this world can “fix” me. I honestly believe this is it  no heaven or hell we had a choice to make this world our heaven or hell,  the more I look around and the longer I choose to stay around it only gets worse. I have given my all to friends family just to be alone in the end. If this is what life is about then I don’t fuckin want . When I’m gone I hope you speak the fuckin truth, tell these people who claim to love me and miss that they’re a bunch of fuckin frauds. Watched me slowly die This is just one “mood swing” I can’t get over because they sure  loved telling me that. People like me don’t get better we  wither around and waste space