If i were to commit suicide

If I were to commit suicide heres my note. I don’t want to but nows a perfect time. I have nothing to look forward to and school just ended for the year. I want to start with my parents thank you for ignoring me and taking favor of my sister instead of me and for never being there for me and always yelling at me to make me feel worse. You definitely know how to teach me how to sacrifice all the  things I want in life just for your sake and you don’t even know it. Thank you to my sister for discriminating against what I think and like. Also thanks you for being lazy and making me do a good majority of your work. Thank you so called friends who do things with me out of pity I can hear the hatred in your voice and annoyance in your eyes.  Also it was really nice of you to ignore my existence when we were alone together one on one. Don’t worry I couldn’t care less what you think just that your people who I can benefit from in the future. Thank you world for being such a shitty place in which your look and how much money you have is what gets you in life for a good part of your future. Thank you America for being the shit of shit where your education is  one of the least priority for you along with money. No what a joke  you guys don’t even care much of your people and give priority to those who only fit your sense of satisfaction. It’s disgusting. Also thank you stupid adults who say I can get in life with my grades and the way I act. Jokes on you it’s all a facade and none you have noticed it yet. The world is a cruel place in which dreams can be crushed by a mere person, word, and everything that doesn’t seem to be a liking for others. But I won’t commit suicide because this is all a game so I can be #1 .Maybe I might to see how everyone will be effected and their reaction. But something is stoping me from doing on or the other, and that’s fear.