I don’t know whether or not I feel like things are worth it. Maybe some things and people are worth living for but what about the rest, what about the things you never asked for. I get that life throws you obstacles to get passed and learn a lesson from but I don’t want this anymore. I don’t want to live with myself, my thoughts, my actions or things I don’t do for myself. I can’t live with my appearance, or who I am. I’m tired of losing people, tired of opening up to people that don’t care, and I’m so damn tired of letting people down, failing them. This pain, well I just want it to end, I hate feeling so hopeless. Why isn’t there a fast forward button? 🙁 or just a button overall. don’t answer that question because it’s obvious why. Anyhow writing helps somewhat..