“Endurance” what does endurance mean? Hi everyone! I’m new to this site, but I’m sure we are all here for the same reason. We have suicidal thoughts or have actually attempted to take our life. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 9. At age 11 I was diagnosed with depression. I was never abused nor was I bullied in school, but I was always lonley when it came to socialize with others, I never thought that being alone was a bad thing. I actually liked being alone, but I came to realize that I had no friends. I have a family who cares A lot for me, but little did I apreciate that. I attempted to take my life 4 times. Hospitalized in 3 different hospitals, little did I know how it would affect me when I arrived at the hospital. I was 12, I had the ugliest feelings about myself, I literally hated myself. But upon arriving to the hospital, I was scared, I couldnt believe that I was there because I tried to kill myself. I cried every night for my parents. But something changed when friends and family came by to see me…I had about 7 visits in one day. And everyone would just stare. Afted visiting hour was over, a boy came up to me and asked, “were all those people your family? Why are you here if you have all these people coming to see you, they love you.” Boy did that make me think. Why am I deppressed? Till this day on I still have thoughts of hurting myself. But thats why I have to keep on enduring! Keep my hopes bright. We all have a cloud raining on us, but eventually a beautiful rainbow will come out. Do not feel scared to talk to someone about how you feel, be honest and just pour out your thoughts. No one can judge you, we are all imperfect human beings trying to be good. Suround yourself with positive thoughts. You are a precious jewl to those who love you!