I dont think anyone can hate me just as much as i hate myself . ive been rejected so many times for so long i honestly end laughing at myself because idk why im putting up with . i dont even know why i continue to look live with depression . someone that is alone like myself will never beat depression or ever find someone to care about me. Sometimes i just sit and imagine to myself how my life would be if i wasnt alone depressed or being with someone special to me but reality is always outside of my mind .im finally begining to wear down. Idk whats the point of my existance . idc if i overdose , kill myself or die in anyway i have become almost immune and numb because if anything happen i think i could be in peace or in hell but idc cus if god Is the one making me suffer why the fuck should i want to see him . i dont have anything to lose except my reality, loneliness and depression. Heres to hoping god finishes me off and ends this cruel joke i call my life.