I’m glad to have found this site. I stumbled upon this place when I was googling a correlation between intelligence and suicide. Ever since I was a child I loved filling my head with all sorts of information, even when I wasn’t actively interested in something I had a little voice in my head that said: “Hey, that sounds useful! Remember it for later!” As the years went on I began to notice my self becoming more socially withdrawn and out of touch with people close to me. It took a while but eventually I reasoned that I was getting progressivley more depressed and apathetic because I was learning to understand reality for what it is: a long, cold, dark, seemingly pointless existence, and having the cogniszance to recognize and accept this fact sheds a light on just how much each individual truly matters in relation to the collective cosmos. At this point in my life I am just trying to live a life that is as fulfilling and and balanced as possible, but I’m certain that regardless of how good or bad things should get I will still maintain the same stance on the monotony of living. I have no plan of suicide, but I’m glad to have a place that I can least freely express my wish to die. Dying just seems like the light at the end of tunnel for me, a permanent release from all the hate and pain on our little rocky world. Thanks for creating a place for sharing these sorts of things.