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maybe it could be some biochemical neurotransmitters disorder? I dont know, a specialist might know. But it is always a good thing to be depressed and not know why, because that means there isn’t a problem of something that has happened. This is an endogenous depression.

So you have a loving family and a girlfriend who loves you. Look at that, maybe some comparison with my life might help you:

I was born in a no family. My mother was a neurotic hyperthiroid individual who left us little after birth. My father was a sadistic and bitter person. I grew up feeling the slash of the belt of my back. Now he has alzheimer and shits on his pants several times a day.

I have never had a girlfriend in 50 years other than one wannabe trial when I was 27 but that never lead to anything. I have worked 6 years in my life. The rest of it unemployed. I live in a secluded place near the Russian taiga, surrounded by perennial snow and darkness. In two years my money for food will run out, at which time I will simply starve as I wont be able to buy anything in the store. I am also losing hearing towards complete deafness. I dont have medical insurance. So I think your problem is that you can afford to feel like that, as your life is too confortable. Any suggestion about what I should do?