new to site I thought I’d tell my story. I first took psch meds at age 16 after becoming depressed for no reason. within an hour of being put on one med I felt something tear in my head. for the next 30 years I dealt with these sensations progressively getting worse but I tried to have a life anyway and used alcohol to numb the sensations and cope with the anxiety it caused. basically I became a highly functional alcoholic and had a good career, a wife and kids. four years ago the brain tearing apart sensations got much worse and I have pretty much been in hell ever since. I lost my job, wife threw me out, and I barely get to see my kids. I believe these brain tearing apart sensations are actually brain hemorrhages and that I am dying an agonizing death because of them. I am suffering a lot and lately have been thinking about hanging myself or throwing myself in front of a train. Both unlikely to happen but I do have the urge. This brain ripping apart disease or whatever you want to call it has destroyed my life.