I’m new here, I’m here because I came across this randomly while googling.
I’m here because I’m planning on killing myself in a few months.
the reason for this delay is I want to pay off my credit card before I go so as not to leave my family with too much of a burden. I also want to have time to plan my perfect last day.
I’m trying to approach this from the most rational direction possible. If I don’t go through with this I’ve got nothing else. I’m a college dropout working a crap job for nine dollars an hour. I can’t connect with people. My family likes to pretend I don’t exist. I cant afford medicine or therapy.
All day I’ve been alternating between calm and terror. I hope these go away soon.
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So much misery in this world . . . I’m so sorry you are sharing in it. Every person has worth. Every person deserves love. And that includes you. You are not the failure. Life has failed you.
I wish you well. I hope you don’t have to kill yourself. But I do understand. Please do try to find a free clinic, perhaps see a regular doctor, not a therapist, and perhaps that doctor can direct you to the help you need.
Sending love,
Vedura, a long term survivor of attempted suicide
I get the feeling bro. I’ve been working in a rice mill for $9. I can get up to 60 hours a week and lose over $200 to taxes as a single 21 year old. They laid me off for being slower than other workers (I have nearly crippled hands).
I get exactly where you’re coming from. I’m in northern Cali. It’s been hell. Try to hold on for a bit.
Good luck with your suicide plans! If you got nothing else then the obvious course is death.
By the way, your credit card debt cannot be transferred to someone else. The card company will collect from your net worth (estate) which all belongs to you.
You really find a way of sharing you joy? It’s obvious you have nothing else to do then judge other people, but thats okay right?