To kill oneself or to not kill oneself? That is one hell of a question.
I’m stuck in the middle my own indecisiveness. On one hand I don’t want to hurt those I think I love but at the same time I don’t know if I can continue. I just have this empty feeling all the time. I constantly doubt those I know ‘love’ me. Everything is just so tiring.
I’m scared I won’t succeed then have to face the consequences.
Maybe I want someone to ask me directly. Then I could tell them but I know they won’t do that, they have no idea.
What’s the point.
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I’m in your shoes. My body and mind is tired. I see no hope. But to take ones life means that all those who love you suffer. I would do so in a heart beat, but my family keeps me alive because I care for them.
We have to be sometimes selfish if escaping by doing suicide hurts the other people who love us is called selfishness. I am in your shoes. The question remains difficult till the last moment I think.
I feel the same way… Right now I know I’m not happy and I don’t know if I ever can be. We all die, so does it really matter if it’s sooner than later? I’m not sure…I’m still thinking about whether it does or does not. But as of right now, I don’t have much hope that I will ever be okay in the future. And it seems like the only thing holding me back from committing suicide is because I don’t want to hurt my friends and family. But I’m scared there will be a point in my life where I actually won’t care whether I hurt them or not. I don’t know anything anymore.