So, I know I’m a terrible person to people I honestly hate, but as for the people who I try to be nice to and care for… WHY CAN’T YOU SPEND FIVE FUCKING MINUTES WITH ME. I really don’t understand how hard it is just to get off an Xbox, or take a few minutes after you get off work, or a simple moment when you get out of school just to talk to me or hang out with me. I mean…. I actually TRIED with you. Even after I gave up on everyone else, I stuck with YOU. Not him or her, not the neighbor, or the dog, or my damn notebook, I tried to stick with YOU. But apparently even when I’m trying with you, it’s just too damn hard to try for me. The one you KNOW wants to die, the one who gave up on everyone else, the one who goes through the daily struggle of whether or not to take her life. But I mean, FUCK why should you try for me, when you can try for the selfish ***** who doesn’t give a flying fuck about you, or the shit head **** of a boyfriend you have that cheats on you, or even your group of asshole friends who are part of the reason I attempted suicide in the first place. BUT GOD FUCKING FORBID YOU TRY EVEN ONCE FOR ME. NO. FUCK ME. DAMN ME TO HELL. I DON’T FUCKING MATTER. I’M JUST A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT LIKE BEFORE. FUCK EVERYTHING.