I’m struggle to let the real me be free and not be this person who I am now that is consumed with anger and resentment, negativity, and ignorance. I’m trying hard to be a better person, I want to be kind to others and be nicer to my parents, but it’s hard when people around me treat me poorly and when my parents don’t respect me and put me down. How am I suppose to be the person I want to be when I’m surrounded by negativity, judgements, and downers? I feel like taking my antidepressants again, even though they make me feel like a zombie by just sitting/standing there not saying a word or being annoying/mean/rude/ignorant, they basically made me feel numb. But then again that’s not who I am. I don’t know what to even do, this war inside me never ends.
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I know what it is like to want to be the real you so bad but it is hard or almost impossible. I also understand how it feels to be numb to everything and sit there in silence, but I don’t have antidepressants so my numb might be a little different. The best thing that you can do is be yourself as much as you can but always watch your back so the real you doesn’t get hurt. Let the consumed you take the blunt of the world’s blows.
I know I’m not who I am that I angers all the time and mean and rude, I used to be so nice and kind but when I got pushed around I turned Into this, and now I’m trying to be nice again but then I go back to being mean and negative
Reminds me of a song… Usually gives me a good kick when I need it: Rilo Kiley https:// http://www.youtube.com /watch?v=B0sy7y54XAE
It sounds good ^_^
I’ve jut been struggling of who I want to be, I randomly forget that I’m trying to be better and something that triggers me makes me mad or angry or upset or makes me be negative. I want to turn to my pills but they make me feel numb and zombie-ish and they also make me not want to eat /: but least try keep me calm