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So I need advice, to start off, I do cut. My mom says its because I cant cope and I think she’s right. When I get upset about something I go numb it seems like. I don’t talk to anyone, sleep, or eat. I tried crying, don’t do a damn thing. I cant cry to cope, so that leads to cutting. I’ve never cut to kill just to feel physical pain. I’d rather have physical then emotional pain. I’m addicted to cutting, like some people are to smoking. The thing that’s making me upset is a recent breakup, and my mom. My mom and I don’t have a good relationship, hell she cant stand to look at me. I try not to get her stressed or worried about me but she wont mind her own business. I have depression and anxiety, and what does she do? she yells at me putting words in my mouth saying I think the world revolves around me or when I fuck up. I stay in my room not caring about what’s going on outside my bedroom. My mom doesn’t know I stated cutting again, if she finds out she will literally flip tables. Its summer so its kind of hard to hide it but I manage.