The goods: Sleeping patterns and grogginess in the morning significantly improved even with my Xanax, Restoril and Seroquel taken right before bedtime and those usually leave me feeling pretty sluggish the morning after. Energy levels have improved somewhat, slight restless feeling mirrored with a slight feeling of being content. Less flashbacks and bad memories so far.
The bads: Dry mouth/throat, some hotflashes, some heart palpitations, impotence, content feeling but at the same time not happy and still feel like I have even more motivation to kill myself. I guess it’s like a trade, my body feels energetic and my mind feels a bit clearer but at the same time my inhibitions seem to be lowered -maybe a bit more impulsive in nature-, like if you were to give me a hangun and a bottle of whiskey i’d probably blow my brains out very fast. I really do understand why there is a suicide risk increase on the label, it just makes you feel like you don’t really give a fuck about things, good and bad. This drug is very confusing, maybe it needs more time to settle in my system.. will keep you all updated.