My husband and i were together 3 years before we decided to have a baby. He started cheating on me when I was 5 months pregnant. He left the week of Thanksgiving. Our baby was born early march. Ive tried so hard for my baby boy to make things work with his daddy. I feel like ive failed my son. I had made plans. Wrote a letter to my son. Set a date. Our anniversary…vicodin and alcohol. Then i realized im all my baby has. He doesn’t have his daddy he needs his mommy…but now were talking divorce…hes decided he wants to be in his life. I dont want to share. I didn’t do anything and i didn’t want this. I cant stop thinking about him someday having a step mommy. Hes too young to understand right now. Im not strong enough to deal with this. I cant compete with another woman for my son’s love. We could come to an agreement and we wouldn’t have to go through court and it would save alot of money. I feel horrible about it but ive got to fight to keep him away from my son. If i lose im done. Im going through with the plan while hes still too young to understand. Hes all ive got..
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You are doing the right thing. I’m sure it’s very hard and I am very sorry. I will never know how you feel but I get the idea that is very hard. The best advice I can give you is keep fighting and never give up. Never stop fighting, especially for what you know is right.
Its a statistic that women choose drugs and alcohol to try and end their lives. Good luck. But it doesn’t sound bad letting the father see your son and getting through whatever shit your going through.
I know it’s hard for you as a mom to think of losing your child. I’ve been through divorce as a child and my dad left and didn’t contact me for two years. It’s hard for me to see him nowadays, cause he’s remarried and has three more kids and it hurts me every time.
If your son is quite young, keep on fighting to keep him. He doesn’t deserve to go through that confusion and hurt yet. Maybe when he’s older, the father can see him, but that depends entirely on how the boy reacts to any changes made (step mom, half-siblings, etc). I wish you good luck.