I have a lot of things that run through my mind. Things I can not explain. My dreams haunt me. My goals are just false hopes. My life is a mess. I hate my life even though, I know others have it worse. This makes me feel guilty. The guilt I have always lived with. The hate as well. I find no point in life. I want to die. I say I’m not scared but I’m scared shitless. I don’t want to go but I do. I’m scared cause after death there is nothing. Oblivion. And I am scared to finally be consumed by my darkest darkness. I don’t want to cause anymore pain than I already have also. There’s too much things that go on in my head! MAKE IT STOP!!!! please…just help me shut it off. But I guess the only way to really make it stop is death, right? Maybe, one day I’ll finally grant myself my only wish. That wish is to die. Or maybe I should…….I don’t know what to do.
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I’m right there with you. Yesterday I was feeling pretty good, going to make some goals and work harder. Then I got sick and now I feel depressed and lost again.
This sounds strange but it doesn’t really matter if others have it worse. Your pain shouldn’t be invalidated by this fact. Just because someone has everything doesn’t mean they can’t feel depressed and want to die. That’s like saying if you’re a millionaire you can’t get cancer. Unfortunately, a lot of things are out of our control. We just have to make the decision to keep going or let it kill us, but even that decision is tough…
Thanks for the support ????
Keep moving forward. Death is not a viable option for a warrior like you. Never say die my friend.
Thanks for the support