I messed up really bad. I left my friend out of an activity that I planned. At the time, I didn’t do it because I dislike her but because I forgot. I have always prided myself on being kind. But I keep forgetting to invite her to stuff. I do not know why. I swear it is not intentional. I have apologized but it isn’t enough. I know she hates me now and it is all my fault. She is mean to me sometimes and now I can see why. I do not deserve to be her friend when I am always hurting her. And the worst part is that I tried to conceal my wrongdoings from her because I feared she wouls be mad. Now I know that doing that only made it worse.
I am a terrible person and I deserve to die for being a bad friend. I have attempted suicide in the past but now I know tonight I will actually do it. This is what I deserve for being so terrible. I wish I could tell my friend that I value our friendship and I would do anything to repair it but she already hates me. I’m going to kill myself.