Im so sorry.
To Mom: Im sorry you’ll never see me become the happy man with family that you always wanted me to be. I’m sorry i was always miserable. Im sorry I never talked to you. Im sorry for being so difficult and putting you through so much.
To my Sister: We always got along rather well. But i could never explain to you whats going on in my mind. I know this will only hurt you and mom more, but I couldn’t take hurting anymore. Im sorry i’ll never be a uncle for your daughter.
To Her: Im so sorry. I know this is the last thing you ever wanted, but its the only way I could find out. I tried everything and i just could not see any better options. I want you to know that i love you so much, you’re so beautiful and I’m so so proud of you. Keep up the good work champ. You’ll make someone so happy one day.
To myself: Im so sorry. I know you’re such a great person with so many great intentions. I know you deserved so much better, and i want you to know that i tried. i tried so hard to make you happy and fulfill your life, but it just never worked. Im sorry you never got the only thing you wanted. What is the point of living when you aren’t happy and don’t have someone to love with. But its okay, because maybe now, everything will be okay.