I am getting ready. I just want somewhere to say it. I can’t tell my friends excitedly about my plans, so I’ll tell you all.
I filed for residency last week. I will get my ID here soon. Then I can buy a pistol. I already have one chosen. Then I can take a concealed carry class and always feel safe, knowing death is always close if I need it. Though I still intend to wait until january, the weight and surety of a gun both soothes me and revs me up. Six more months. Six more months and I’m allowed to quit.
Just six more months.
So close I can taste it.
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You are so lucky. I wish we could get guns in Australia
I don’t understand.. I currently have five guns. I would love to “quit” but I do not have the courage to do it.
Have you tried liquid courage? And what kind of guns and ammo type do you have? That will make all the difference in the world
I wouldn’t choose a pistol because it’s too risky and comes with a bigger chance of failing, even if you shoot yourseld in the head. Read my post because I got my own plan. Sale your pistol and safe up for something bigger and better so that you will not fail, also do it in a way that is failsafe. I wrote my plan if you care to read it.
Be careful using a shotgun. They have a huge kick back that will jerk your arms up and miss where you are aiming. I gave the same advise to wndozh8er. Don’t maim yourself for life while trying to die. You’d end up worse off than you now are, perhaps permanently disfigured or crippled. Please be careful.
I am not sure what to tell you. I am in terrible daily psin, and as a human and partner I am incurable disfunctional. I am not courageous in this, as courage is to persevere in the face of fear but I am not very afraid.
I don’t intend to use a shotgun, as I am too petite to wield it without a string or pull that might change the trajectory. I intend to use a very short barreled pistol with high pressure ammunition, and carefully chosen and researched placement.
Not much sounds worse than my already fucked up life but with half as much face involved.