On the 4th of July I relapsed. I’ve been struggling with self-harming for almost 6 years and drugs for almost 3. My mom’s been having problems with her boyfriend of 5 years and has been trying to get him out of our lives since he does drugs and only thinks about himself, so on the 4th that was the first time we’ve seen him in a month? So he was trying to act like everything was ok, but he drank a 6 pack and started acting stupid like always, so we went to go drop him off. They argued the whole way… was feeling really down and angry and seeing the way he was, was making me want to not feel and i was missing the feeling of being on a drug. We went to my cousins house to go swimming and pop fire works, I went to the restroom and found a bottle of hydrocodone pills, I took one (because I had been drinking) and I continued to drink that night. I was GONE. Stumping everywhere. I’m 17 and am not suppose to be drinking so everyone was giving me a hard time.
I’m really upset with myself that I relapsed. I have no self control and am very impulsive. I’ve been feeling really sick since then and have finally felt better to write this.
Any tips or advice? Or tell me your story of drug abuse and how you recovered or tell me how you are recovering from anything you are going through right now.. thanks in advanced.
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Hey I just wanted to say that you do have self control because you managed 30 days clean which is no easy feat after 3 years of habitual use. Whatever you were doing was working just avoid the environments and situations you know will tempt you and get you into trouble.