Why am I always on the computer?
Why do I never do anything else in real life?
I don’t have any friends in real life, MOM. I don’t see anyone in real life who has anything in common with me. What’s that? You think I won’t learn any social skills from online school? I’ve learned more social skills online than I have in real life. I have friends online who care about me. I only feel normal online because I’m one of many there, whereas, in real life, I’m all on my own.
I haven’t met anyone who’s transgender. I haven’t met anyone with autism. I don’t see anyone my age who cares about children’s cartoons anymore. Most people my age have just moved on to shows like Family Guy and The Simpsons. Not to mention I have to sit through sex jokes for 7 hours a day. Thank god for Summer.
The internet is my only friend, since I have no one in real life to care about me. But then my computer went. Now it’s broken. Now I’m stuck with an iPad my mom gave me. Isn’t that sweet? No, it’s not. She tosssed her iPad 1 (which is sucky as hell) on me so she could move to a better device. So now I’m super restricted from the internet.
You think this will help me find some time in real life to hang out with people in real life? No. I only have my sisters to care about me and there’s been nothing to do, since they don’t listen to me on what we want to do during Summer, so I have to sit through car rides that make me feel emotionally sick.
And as I start getting restricted from my only friends on the internet, I begin feeling farther and farther from happiness, as I constantly grow suicide thoughts every day. I want to simply take a pill and go to sleep, just never to wake up. Maybe people in this world will be more happy without me.