So here I am, an eighteen year old boy on a website designed for sad teenage girls and I’m expected to talk about the “perks” of being me? Okay fine if it will keep her happy and I’ll be able to come out more often then FINE I’ll write! Hm some perks? Well, I had a milkshake last night so that’s cool or whatever. Man I don’t think I can sit here and pretend there are perks to being myself. I can’t even be myself! I’m 18 and a boy and I’m trapped in a woman’s body, let me tell you going to the bathroom and reaching for your cock only to find you don’t have one is not a perk. Going to clubs and bringing the hottest guy in there home only to realize I can’t fuck him is not a perk. I came in last night because this crazy ***** had a melt down and needed me to man the ship for a bit, but she really had the nerve to his her wallet. Like why?! I’m not Ellie. I’m not going to order a large pizza or go roller skating. Uggggh okay satisfied?! I wrote a journal entry in the World Wide Web so everyone can experience our crazy and those who don’t understand it are sure to discredit it. This isn’t a good idea I just hope Elizabeth wakes up and sees it for what it is.
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That’s interesting.
You’re a boy trapped in a woman’s body and you pick up guys in clubs? Do the guys you pick up see you as a male or female? Are you a gay man trapped in a woman’s body?
I’ve never heard of this before. Your story is intriguing.
My situation is complicated And I suppose if you’ve never read anything written by us before then it would be even more difficult to grasp; I am an alter, my “host” is Elizabeth. She as mentioned in previous writings; has created this as an attempt for “communication among alters as well as a creative outlet”. Yes, I am a gay boy trapped in the body of a woman. I’m 18 and I’ve been around for about 6 years. If you interested in knowing more of our situation let me know and if not me let one of us know and we will fill ya in. I apologize for the hostility in this post I was having a terrible morning and I don’t much care for being told what to do.
Hello Malcom. I found your post somewhat amusing as I can appreciate irony and sarcasm. But may I suggest you rethink your impression that this site was designed for sad teenaged girls? I agree that demographic seems to have high numbers here from time to time, but they are not the reason the site was created.
This site has served as a safe haven for many who suffer from the medical issues that cause suicidal ideation. And it was for this reason the site was created. We try not to ridicule those who hold different beliefs from our own. Most of us are on this site because we feel we have nowhere else safe to go to with our pain.
I hope you feel safe here, too.
I apologize for any offense that I may have caused with this post. I was having a bit of an awful morning and I don’t like being told what to do. When I woke to find specific instructions from my host to write her I used it as an opportunity to lash out. Again I apologize