I want to be shot but I don’t want to die. I don’t want to end up paralyzed either. I am in a financial bind so I don’t have any money to pay you. Here’s my story: I’m utterly depressed. People tell me I’m too beautiful to be so sad. I’m 26 and everyone says I look just like Sarah Hyland. … In fact that’s all they seem to notice. No one knows how intelligent I am because they can’t get past my looks. My face seems to be all anyone cares about… They don’t want to know they real me. And when people finally get to know what I’m really like they get intimidated and tend to flee. I know it sounds crazy but I’ve been depressed for most of my life because of how I’m judged on my appearance. For years I’ve spent so much time daydreaming about my death to a point to where I now find comfort in it. The thing is, as much as I want to, I can’t die… Not yet. I can’t hurt my family. It’s a difficult problem to live with but I feel I have a solution. … To feel close to death. To know the impact of being shot. To be injured and afraid, but without consequence. I feel like this experience could help me get past my emotional damage. I would not want to see your face (i would ask you to wear a mask) and I would not want to know your real name. I would chose a location without security cameras or witnesses anywhere in the vicinity. And I would also give you plenty of time to leave the scene before calling an ambulance. Through this pain may my heart finally heal. Please help me in my conquest to freedom.