TRIGGER WARNING

May be triggering, but need help
so I am 14 going on 15 and i was adopted when I was 2 from ukraine (I was born premature, and then was dumped on the street by my mom when I was a month old) I was brought to the states and then my mom and dad started to abuse me. Physically at first and then when I was 5 my dad started sexually abusing me and my brother started when I was 8. This is continuing to this day. For about the past 3 years I have been suffering from ptsd and has had multiple suicide attempts. In oct 2014 I jumped from a moving car that was going 75mph on the highway. I broke my left shoulder and has had 5 surgerys on it. Right now I have not had sleep in 5 days straight, and have not ate for 6 days straight. I need someone to talk to.