It’s been quite long since i’ve first felt miserable. the constant feeling of loneliness despite going out and hanging out with friends and family is so chronic. it didn’t end at being sad and miserable. i’ve attempted suicide several times but alas why it’s not working? perhaps different way might help. it’s reason of being in medical school or family issues or self problems that compels this feeing of being helpless and sad. sometimes, suicide despite being a good solution it’s a difficult one to make. i feel terrible and each episode gets worse than previous. i think i’ve to stick to my time plan and this time make sure it works. i reckon away from family/friends and in a quiet environment would help.