I’m sorry, she’s a good person but I’m pissed off and frustrated at her right now! I asked her again tonight when I can get my own Visa card so I can buy the peaceful pill eHandbook. She got on her high horse and said “this is a bad book I can’t do it”. I said “how is it a bad book?” She said “I did research and it gives you contacts”. I said so? I want a freaking book using my own money and I got freedom of information!!!!!!!!! She said “your crazy”. I said – let me buy the damn book! She said “I can’t think about this right now, we will talk about it in a month”. So I guess on Sep 23rd of this year I’ll ask her about it again. God damnit!
WHAT IS SO CRAZY ABOUT WANTING A PEACEFUL FUCKING EXIT? LIFE ITSELF IS FUCKING CRAZY. BORN JUST TO SUFFER AND DIE AGAINST YOUR IS WILL FUCKING CRAZY!!! NOT HAVING A SAY OVER YOUR DEATH IS FUCKING CRAZY! THIS JUDEO-CHRISTIAN CULT OF A SOCIETY IS FUCKING CRAZY.
Carla saw a rainbow last year and seen it as a message from her deceased  mother. She thinks that we chose to be born when we were “spirits” in preexistance, she’s a spiritualist Mormon lite. Wanna talk about crazy? Me and her can have a wonderful conversation about which one is really crazy!
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How much is it? You could go to a supermarket or whatever and pick up a Visa gift card, anyone can use those (I’m assuming you’re an adult).
I don’t know why but from your posts i’m getting the idea that you picked the wrong person to ask for help, lol.
Yeah I did lol. But I don’t know who else to ask help from. Carla can sometimes be pretty liberal about stuff like this, than can be an extremist on the issue too. “It’s a bad book”. Lol what kind of fucking response is that? This “bad book” helped many people on there death beds end there suffering peacefully, and some mentally ill people too. Maybe I should get a “good book” like the Bible which supports slavery, child murder, genocide, rape, ISIS tactics, and promises of eternal damnation for anyone who disagrees with God.
Sorry I’m ranting I’m just emotional about this because it’s my life! Not hers!
I’m 31. Carla controls my money because she’s my representative payee. When I got SSI, they said I am not able to handle my money for some reason. I’m not quite sure why since I don’t have an intellectual disability and could pay my bills. I never went crazy and mishandled money or anything important. i wasn’t sure if I could buy a visa or not because I’m alittle bit ignorant on the subject since I don’t usually use them and never bought them before.
I was very humiliated when they said I couldn’t be my own payee. Talk about feeling small! I could handle money just like any other adult.
I’m not slow, I’m not autistic, I don’t have a low iq or anything that should disqualify me from paying my way.
That’s awful, I’m sorry to hear that. Well, with a Visa gift card all you need to do is pay for it at the checkout, they’ll authorise it, and then you’re free to use it online or in stores (usually – double check to make sure it’s available for interweb purchases).
Thank you so much! I’m gonna take your advice. Btw, how much does one cost? And how can I get my money transferred to the card without going though my “representative” payee?
There are different amounts available. It’s a gift card so probably not more than a few hundred dollars at once, not sure. And you pay up front, you shouldn’t have to show any identity info. Cash or a debit card works, if you have one.
Wait, I gotta pay 100 dollars before I can put money in there?
I can attest to that, the cost is really low. You end up paying for the amount you want and a little extra charge (in some cases), no different than getting a regular gift card.
No, it’s like this: You can buy a $75 card, a $100 card, a $200, maybe $250 as well (if you don’t see Visa available, MasterCard or other options should be fine as well). You pay for it with your cash or debit card, then the cashier authorises it at the checkout (there’s a small fee for this, you can see it listed on the card info). Now the card is ready to use, just like a regular Visa, but only with the allocated amount listed. If you need to purchase a few items, you can buy a few of these gift cards. They aren’t traceable, and that’s why they’re good for buying potentially illegal items. No one can prove it was you.
Nope, you don’t put money in the card, the card is sold already with the amount that you want (if it’s a visa gift card, same as any other gift card). Like say you want 100 bucks, you pay 100 bucks + charge of service (not sure about this, but when they do charge it it’s pretty low) and you get a precharged 100usd card that is non rechargeable. At least that’s how i think it works.
The other thing you are mentioning is a debit/rechargeable card, those are different things. No idea if they give out those without having a bank account (at least around here they don’t).
lol ur battles with ur aunt ate killing me. just get another 6 pack of coorz the silver billet
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I’m getting a 12 pack tomorrow. Yeah we should be on TLC. A reality show in the making.
hahaha totally. id watch it. i love it cuz of how adamantly u argue ur side with her. thats the best part about it cuz any sane person hearing ur argument would react as she is.
You know, I thought about my exchange with my aunt from your perspective and laughed my ass off at the thought of you laughing your ass off. Lol if you think I’m sane or not doesn’t matter to me. It’s all subjective. I’d consider myself sane due to the logical way I communicate and the fact that I don’t change my mind about my plans or jump to rash methods.
sanw ould be the wrong word i suppose. someone conditioned in our society and brought up with the accepted rationale. i dont think ur insane. i think ur desperate for a solution is all. and yeah i fuckin died last night and im back here today with a smile on my face awaiting the next update about Carla’s take on your death mission.
I have a copy from 2007 I think that I can send you. … it’s a few years old, yes… up to you. I can email it if you want… just need your email
Hey thank you my friend! I really appreicheare it. It’s wndozh8er@aol.com. This is incredibly nice of you man!
Sent it. Happy reading.
Just a heads up: all the suppliers of stuff (if there ere any) on the 2007 edition have been dead for years, but the rest of the book should be useful. Thought it was worth mentioning 😀
Thank you so much for this! You truly are a saint! I just wish I could give you something in return
No problem… all good.
Agreed on suppliers changing… Also changes to different rules and laws… as for exit methods, the wheel on this front can’t be reinvented too many times over so it is useful on that front.
I read this book and there’s nothing interesting except N-em-but-al. It is a sad book for sad people. I would quit this world in an easier way.
The sad part of about the book is the unavailability of the Numb. I just read the 2007 version thanks to an incredible friend of mine. I read a lot on the Mexican Option but I also know that sometimes even that’s unreliable. Who knows, I may go to Tiijuana and buy some from every vet clinic I can find, than use the testing kit when I’m back in the states. I’ll use a picture in case the vet doesn’t speak English. I’m capable of doing incredible things when I want something bad enough! I’ll have to do research on that. I still wanna buy the updated eHandbook. I hope there’s more info in there. also I found the exit bag and inert gas very appealing. I read about the Peanut Project but damn I ain’t no chemist. I teared up near the end of the book when I read Terry’s story, the man who had to use a rifle to end his life. Like him, I don’t want to have to resort to that. Funny thing about the book, I actually thought about bribing a vet or breaking into a vet clinic. My far away sweetheart knows a vet but she wouldn’t give her the Numb. Plus I have absolutely no idea where the vets keep the Numb stored in America. Don’t feel like volunteering for an animal shelter to steal it. I’ll find a way eventually. I hope aunt mommy will go ahead and buy the gift (to go) card so I can buy the updated book. I’m about to get my learners permit so I can learn to drive so I can be more freed up. Also I plan on moving into a Hudd house so I may be able to get a hold of N canisters.
I’m glad I read it. A lot of it is stuff that I already know, but it gave me additional info that I needed. My journey and education continues!
You say you want a peaceful death. Why do you keep asking a loved one to help you end your life when you already know that they are against it. You constantly end up in arguments with your aunt. Why involve her. If you ever do happen to end your life would it not be better to leave her guilt free knowing that she tried to save someone she loved but failed. Instead of leaving her with the guilt of knowing that something she may have done helped you end your life. You are a grown man. Why would you involve another innocent person who repeatedly expresses their opposition to your ideas.
i feel like an asswipe cuz im sittin on a goldmine aka the ******** dealers email thats legit. but giving it to you would end this amaZing game show you and carla the conqueror have going on, which is way too entertaining honestly
Okay you have the goods and your not going to share? ! Damn dude. LOL I admit…it is interesting.
I understand Mormonism all too well. I was originally raised under the covenant in the church before I told them all to go fu** themselves.
Hey if you have something you can offer me, I won’t fuck it up.